| Summer 2007 |
[Aug. 13th, 2007|12:11 pm] |
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so i thought after a long strange year i had finally found my niche. I got a job at MyOrganicMarket(MOMs) in Frederick, Md as a supplement/bodycare specialist. I LOVED that job, i was up early every morning ready for work and excited about life again. I loved working there so much that i was pulling extra hours and not even realizing it or stopping to look at the time. Imagine a job where your not staring endlessly at the time waiting for it to be over!! But of course all good things come to and end..some shorter durations then others. I only lasted there 2 1/2 mos because a girl with LOTS OF INSECURITIES and weight/age issues could deal with the fact that the same job that made her miserable was a job that i adored. Well, of course, this girl(who lives not even a block away from me) got the manager position and couldn't wait to knock me down a few pegs. On the day that the owner of the store came in and congratulated me for going "above and beyond" and for "taking initiative" and i got a promotion to a buyer position, on the very same day, this b*tch takes me in the back office, scolds me for causing tension(because i knew what she was all about and was trying to stay away from her)and cuts me back from 40 hrs weekly to 16hrs.
I walked out.
I wasnt about to have another Common Market experience..Fredneck..must be something in the water.
after that experience, another series of unfortunate events, and my 23rd birthday proceeded to come and go almost without me noticing.
I have reconnected with my little brother who is not so little these days but has grown into a 16yr who thinks before he speaks. I found that I Love him more than I'd ever admit and the bond we share, being each others only other link to our father, he is my blood and I Love him.
He loves Brian and just thinks the world of him too.
We go hunting for sharks teeth at the willows and talk and i notice how tall he is, and how he squints his brown/hazel eyes when he looks out into the water, just like dad.
I think today Brian and I are taking him to the museums in D.C.
to be continued... |
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[Feb. 28th, 2007|04:52 pm] |
yeah so,i went to the doc today because ive been feeling all puky and fatigued and out of it for like the past 3 weeks, and i knew that i had a virus 3 weeks ago but it turns out that the virus i got is Mono. grrrrrrrrreat.
and well from this ongoing bout with the dreaded LYME disease it looks like my fate is sealed in sickness.
and to all of you that i shared ciggs, drinks, and lovely little kisses...im sorry, but you have been infected ;P
vox populi=voice of the people...interesting.. |
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| my new two favorite hobbies are: |
[Feb. 7th, 2007|12:32 pm] |
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Knitting and bowling.
who'da thunk it. |
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| life is like whoa.. |
[Feb. 5th, 2007|09:42 pm] |
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my heart overflows.
sometimes i just gotta flow with it.
i am well. |
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[Jan. 26th, 2006|05:49 pm] |
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***Horescope***
Deeper understanding
This quality of time will help you to develop a deeper understanding of those psychological areas that are connected with the experience of pain, suffering and rejection. This influence is especially well suited to so deepening the understanding of these interrelations that the first inklings of how to carry out a healing can be perceived. During this phase it is important to talk to other people who are interested in this theme. This time is well suited to penetrating the complicated connections and dependencies between human behavior, the psyche and early injuries - to differentiate between cause and effect -, whether for yourself or for someone who has confided in you. |
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| Fiery Signs |
[Jan. 23rd, 2006|07:12 am] |
**Horoscope for January 23nd**
At a critical point:
The energies in your life are reaching a culmination now. This is the time to try to bring your affairs to a climax, but do not expect to escape opposition from other people, for others have ambitions that may be in conflict with yours. Even with those aspects of your life that have been working out well and are now reaching a climax, you are not yet past the critical point. To achieve is one thing, but to incorporate these achievements into your life and make them part of your personal growth is something else. You have built structures and organized your life in various ways, and now you will experience the consequences of these structures as they begin to react and influence your life. Yet you still have the creative power to determine how your own creations will recreate you. |
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[Dec. 10th, 2005|10:14 am] |
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mylife full of contradictions.
as fast as it comes equally hard it falls.
take my time -this time.
if the option is open to discussion.
destiny has its own recourse. |
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| OperationCeaseFire |
[Sep. 25th, 2005|07:03 pm] |
so saturday, sept 24th i went to dc for the protest against the war & the Great white Bush Regime..it was soooo crazy. i woke up at 6am because i was so excited and couldnt possibly sleep. Brian and i left at around 730am to meet some friends, and car pool down to the metro. work has been crazy lately and i need a HUGE aggression release. i have been feel a strong pull over the last couple mos. the world is changing, my world is changing. life once again in shift and at full force. but this time..i feel like as a whole(universally speaking) that the lines of the positive and negative sides(& peoples true intent)of life are being firmly drawn. its hard because of the expectations of human nature ultimately lead to the great letdowns and dissappointments. and once again it proved me to be naive and still wanting to have an optimistic view of my fellow man/woman.i dont really know if/when/or if ever i will get over that..
but anyways........i needed to vent. i marched, chanted, yelled, cursed, pointed out faults, and offered suggestion. their was so many people. it was a beautiful site. quarter of a million people had come together to express their concerns and right out rage at what our society has amounted to at the hands of our government, multi-billion dollar corporations running the government, and the mass-media portraying the bullshit ideal of an american dream by keep our ideas and opinions suppressed, keeping our mouths shut, and letting our destiny become determined by the following being mentioned above...and all i have to say is....FUCK THAT SHIT!!
NEVER WILL I EVER..LIVE MY LIFE..AND LET MY HEART AND MIND BE CONTROLLED BY THE GREED OF ANOTHER HUMAN BEING/INSITUTION!!
that being said. i had a great day.after the march which lasted 4-5 hrs we walked over to the convention center for the green festival anually held in dc and cali. it was all about sustainable living, and pro-activally becoming apart of the solution to the big problems we face at the hands of our own demise. its crazy..
oh yeah..and the best part..FRONT ROW FOR JELLO BIAFRA AND LE TIGRE// rekindiling my love for the riott girl movement..
...and one more thing....im moving to portland, oregon in january//
west coast here i come.. |
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| updates just for you. |
[Aug. 16th, 2005|09:09 am] |
so after a lonnnnnnnnnnnng time with no post..
i decided to drag my ass outta bed on a tuesday morning @630am
make my mate', shower n shave and head for the library to catch up on all the nonsensical mellodrama that is livejournal..
over the last 3mos...alot has changed
i feel as if this whole mercury in retrograde has become a part of me and made me realize just who i was and how fiery i can be.
life could have not gone better for me in the last 3mos.
me health is at is peak, i have a gazzillion and one CLOSE friends i absolutely love and adore who all rock out with their cocks out 24-7...and i am now offically legal in all fifty one states to get as wasted off of alcohol as i want and any given time during the day and/or night(even tho marijuana will always be my first love). my mother and i have also bonded over the last couple months and i think i have been waiting for that for the last 21 yrs.
i work bout 40+ hrs at the most rockin grocery store on this side of the mississippi and my free time is spent living it up with my most gorgeous boyfriend of now almost a year..
my longest bestest friend ryan should be visiting me soon and possibly moving to shepherdstown in the next couple weeks and i am completely exstatic about her upcoming arrival. i will make big plans.
other than that bills are paid and the house and laundry are clean!
i feel like i am at a zenth, another monuementus phase in my life..
and shit is fucking rockin..
i picked up my guitar and felt her body in my hands. the passion is back and i want to start the most intense chick band..any takers??
an adolescent who has their first taste of orginal sin, thinks they discovered it"
<<~~~ oh, didnt we all ;) |
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| and this is my life for now.. |
[May. 4th, 2005|11:56 am] |
well..i have about 15 mins till i leave for work..i love working at the co-op. i fucking love it..but i really dont have a lot of free time. free time for friends and MY own life. i miss my friends. i miss being carefree..i know i am in a good spot and i love it .. i love working i love the ppl i love the atmosphere and the confidence it brings me..but i do miss my free time. and i miss being a little fireball full of energy and not a care in the world.
im still a fireball..but i do care..about everything..all the time now..
im settling in to becoming an adult. but i am not willing to lose all the things i found to love about myself along the journey of self discovery// i want to go to work 40+ hrs a week and still have time to be crazy spontaneous and vivacious..
im nearing the balance i think. i went to a bonfire out at zacks and grahams last nite..and a river party earlier last weekend..im getting myself out there slowly but surely..
its like ive spent the last 6 mos..and a long hard winter..constantly trying to shelter myself..cradle what i had..not let anyone get to me..blah blah..
but now its time to take the walls down. I AM NOT A BORING PERSON.. nor do i intend to lead a humdrum life...
but work and play...theres got to be a way to enjoy both..and to all the ppl ive missed in this process..
i do think of you..all my friends..that ive ever known..all the time..
i just dont want to rock the boat with my out-of-control side..that tends to come out if i dont keep that shit on lock down//..
i love you all.i really do. |
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[May. 1st, 2005|09:16 am] |
im about to go on my 8th day of working...sunshine daydreams last weekend was a blast..ive been having mood swings but i think its because i came off of birth control..things are on the up now tho..
and i get time and a half today..but i will have to miss the fairie festival.
oh well. |
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[Apr. 6th, 2005|10:01 am] |
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i had a horrible dream....but when i woke up. he was laying beside me and i knew it was only a nitemare.. |
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[Mar. 21st, 2005|11:54 am] |
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 my best friends since i was born..bimby,bozo, and flopsy...those who know me well...know i will go to the grave with mah 'babies'//ie..teddy bears...
 this is where i read and drink my tea in the morning..the sun comes in thro that window around 745am...i sit and wait to greet the sun and start my morning..
....today is monday..and my day off..im gonna chill like ive never chilled before.. |
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[Mar. 16th, 2005|10:28 am] |
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well..life has been pretty steady.
tues thro sat i wake up at 830am..walk down in my pjs to meet kristen at thee coffee house..el Lost Dogg. get my caramel/or hazulnut/or vanilla latte'
bullshit with my soul sista..then i come home wash dishes, tidy up the place..and take a shower all before 10am..then i wake brian up..around 1030..we make love or talk or laugh...we get dressed and leave for work at around 1200 noon...work at the co-op in fredrick from 1-9pm(which is seriously the best job i have ever had..i have beautiful ppl all around me who laugh and love and laugh some more.) then i drive home thro the mtns..about 25 min. and brian and i make dinner(eating really good these days)..take bong hits and watch family guy and roseanne...then i usally get on the internet and he plays zelda..then we make love again..and then i usually pass out at around 1130pm
and i love it..
stability is a girls best friend..tues thro sat...
sun & mon tho...we party it up.. :)
go to bars, campfires,hiking large mtns..getting stoned when i reach the top..music..
the balance is magnificent..
and spring is just around the bend..
i cant wait boys n girls...this spring has excitment written all over it..
brian is loving it here in shepherdstown..
and im loving him.. living together has brought us so close..
we alternate dish & trash duty..and he makes dinner for us..
because we all know i cant cook worth a shit..
i tried to make fried bananas from this cookbook and i almost set the stove on fire...
heh.. |
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| yeah...heres a picture |
[Mar. 14th, 2005|11:28 pm] |
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i took a picture in the new apt..i was feeling good and felt photogenic*whichneverhappens*...here ya go..
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| spring is a commin' |
[Mar. 11th, 2005|09:46 pm] |
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shite is cool yanno..
still like my bong hits after work..
some things will never change.
but i think...in the last year, i have grown into a whole other piece of myself.
life can just be crazy sometimes.. |
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| shepherdstown pictures |
[Mar. 6th, 2005|09:30 pm] |
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some pictures of the annapolis peeps from our shepherdstown trip in january..
it was like 70 degrees that day..
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steph and maria in shepherdstown |
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steph
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apt
brian in our apt the first week we moved in |
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steph
steph and the train |
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group pic of the buffalo soldiers.. |
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little house
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brian.
sitting on a rock |
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[Feb. 28th, 2005|01:15 pm] |
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brian and ian are making vegetarian chilli in the kitchen. alishas coming over and were gonna take bong hits, watch some movies and eat some chilli.
snow is falling from the sky//tons and tons of snow.
days off with my friends are the best.
brian went to the store this morning to get ciggs, and came back with a bouquet of lillies..
i feel that i am the luckiest girl in the world. honestly.
this boy is soooooooo fucking good to me, i intend to do everything in my power NOT to fuck this up.
ive gotten to see a lot more of my friends around town:kristen, alisha, annie, ian..etc..
and i must say..i have some pretty fucking awesome friends again.
my house is so swell.
it has a bohemian look about it. we have paintings and tapastries..and love in this home.
lots and lots of love.
god, i am so greatful.
so very greatful.
i completely appreciate this. completely.
ive worked hard and i did it.
i pay all my bills on time and still have money in the bank.
and brian...well brian--i have finally found a true soulmate in every sense of the word. i love him and he loves me unconditionally.
and well that has to be the best feeling in the world.
life is good..once again..
i love my friends, i love my job, i love my boyfriend, and i love myself.
thank you thank you thank you.
i am forever indebted to whatever higher power that is looking out for me right now, and i couldnt ask for a better life.
....eh...well......time to ease my mind folks..
take care.
xoxo
L. |
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| cayanne//my new favourite spice |
[Feb. 20th, 2005|07:17 pm] |
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life is beautiful...today is sunday. its supposed to snow. :)
constant. thats what i like.
call me old fashion.
i think i am going to apply for a college of natural health. I want to me a holistic naturpathic doctor/herbalist specializing in child/adolescent care.
hmmm...i could really do this..
its all in the technique..
xoxo.
L.
p.s. much love to my soul brothas/sistas' from coast to coast.. |
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